Level camp was like, WOAH!
i don't know how to describe it, its seriously weird.

they were so nice, so nice before lunch.
doing the different kinds of handshakes.
played the song Love, Me which made me teared ):
partly because the song was rather saddening, but mostly because it reminds me of LISA!
she intro-ed me the song last time! then it made me think of brenda, jasmine, weiting and her ):
hais, i so miss the times the FIVE of us were together!
and since SOMEONE's birthday is coming real sooon, im planning to ask the five of us out! (:
heheh, luckily i had JAMIE beside me, and she tried comforting me lahs.
thanks dear! hahahas :D

went around to find new friends!
met Pinkie! Farah introduced him to me, hahah! (:
yeps, err the rest i forgot who... except one who was the staff facilitator, Ivan. got him during the round where we had to find someone we fear. hahas...
someone we are attracted to, couldn't find anyone -.-
ouxiang was right beside me all the while... but i didnt had a chance to go forward to him because there'll always be others who go to him before me. hmm actually since i said game over long ago, i wasn't so high to go to him also lahs :/

after lunch, TORTURE -.-
resilience. the activity was tough.
with 3blockers and only 2supporters, and all the negative voices shouting at you at the top of the voice, you get pushed again and again.
okay, i admit i did freak out when i saw the demo. and i was so afraid i will cry when it was my turn to get pushed.
however, i had great supporters! Lena was shouting into my ears 'you can do it!' and thus, i couldn't really hear the facilitator (our class ogl) who was shouting everything bad that she can think of. oh and fortunately, i didn't cry! :D
hehehh must be i was too happy to even cry then, cos i finally found someone after so long! ahh! xDD
hmm yeps, i see many people crying during the activities. some girls even have 3 GUYS as blockers! gosh...
i think if im being blocked by them, i'll definitely cry lah. it seems more like getting bullied to me :x

then had PUBLIC SPEAKING.
another tough round. standing on the TABLE and talking about your goals for 1minute is not that easy. and imagine having to speak to the crowd for another minute while they are told to stay quiet and uninterested / act ah beng ah lians (thats what i got when i was up there) / rowdy crowd / 3 year old children / etc etc...
felt shaky at first, and i really wondered was it the table or just me?
so while i was given the 30seconds to close my eyes and think about what i was going to say, i stepped forward with my right leg and the table actually shaked even more! LOL!
ok, so it was the table. hahas...
so i talked about my goals of scoring well, getting into psychology course, be a psychologist etc etc... and when the crowd started criticising me, i was really at a loss of what to say. tried my best to continue but i think i did that badly.
ohwell... at least i gained the experience.

now my arms and thighs are aching! :/
wonder how i'm going to survive tomorrow, but it's the last day!
persevere, persevere!
tomorrow's camp will be tough or even tougher i guess?
sigh, all i can do is just continue with my favourite phrase 'i believe' -.-

A level results out tomorrow!
JAVIN!! ahhhs i hope i'll get to see him! :D



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