truly, madly, deeply ♥

because i am counting on a new beginning, a reason for living, a deeper meaning (:

i think i am such a slacker :(
i don't even feel like doing my tutorials even after much procrastination.
actually its not really about the tutorials, its about 放空ing, 发呆ing too much!

Imagine you're studying, and half of the time... you're reading words like Nicotinamide adenine dinucleotide, chymotrypsin and phosphofructokinase.
LOL, i thought it was cool to understand long long words.. erm not anymore :/


no more feeling guilty! ♥ (:

我感觉 我懂你的特别 (:

It's the full version! so cute!

Touch my heart Touch my heart 心像冰淇淋漸漸溶化 ^^

rah i kind of regretted, and im still feeling guilty :(
will think of something to make it up.

hahaha good or bad?
I guess it's good and bad.
顺其自然 la~
:D

I see midterms coming..
yup, must study harder already!

也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏

to start with, this semester isn't that smooth-sailing
too many things happened, too many things going the wrong way :(

i just hope my lab tomorrow will turn out alright.
the pills are making me drowsy, so i've decided to pause my medication tmr and go ahead with labwork.

tomorrow's february already.
abit too fast ah D:

the wet weather reminds me of this song.

下雨天 - Lara

下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你
我不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沈默的場景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

這星球 讓我們 用笑聲來推動 :)

School starts already actually but my lessons officially starts tmr! :D

It's back to printing lecture notes, doing tutorials, long train rides and tiring weekdays...
Taking Economics this semester, i hope i can manage!
And Mastering Comm is sucha project-based module that i kind of hate it even before i've attended any lessons.
Groupwork and tutorial participation... sian ttm! ):

And i've got to juggle Math and Physics, as well as Chem and Biochem.
CCA kicks in, with tutoring kids on Sats and meetings for planning of VOC this year.
This semester is surely not easy, definitely.

I know there are some things i've to put aside at this time.
There's enough things to juggle, enough problems to worry about...
We can't expect a perfect solution for anything and everything.
I've kicked the habit of being a perfectionist, waiting for the time to start and end things perfectly, because some things are just not meant to be.

有时候 包容不完美 比执着于完美 来得容易 (:

On a sidenote, looking at Chemistry notes makes me happy :D

不管下一站是哪里, 只要有你在, 就是幸福的.

One more week before school starts!

It's going to be a good semester because i've no lessons most Mondays! (:
No Monday blues! :D
Hopefully i get my electives, whether its Korean/Econs/Japanese.
At least i can clear my GERPE/UE.

I kind of miss school when i can't find anything to do at home.
But i know i will miss having nothing to do when school starts.
LOL, aah thinking about MATLAB, lab reports and mastering comm module, i realise i don't miss school THAT much actually.

Anyways, there's more to look forward to.
JJ Party 5 in Feb, JJ I AM Concert in March and after the semester, Taiwan trip! :D
definitely great motivations to work hard this semester eh.

18jan results!
hahah i just wish and hope and pray it's gonna be alright (:

我告诉自己 这是最后一次

一年又过去了...

It may seem like a really short year, because time flies when you're having fun.
And i did had lots of fun this year! :D

Its not easy to sum up the whole year.
Lots of ups and downs, happiness and sadness, surprises and disappointments...

but what really matter is i've gotten over some stuffs,
some things that should be let go, you'll let them go eventually.

你跌倒了 地球也不会因为你而停止转动
所以我会爬起来 继续往前走 :D

JJ says:
想一想2010里，你做了什麼，說過什麼，成就了什麼？你擁抱了幾個人，讓他們感覺到溫暖？你從嘴裡或言語里傷害過哪些人？你當初告訴自己要做的，有哪些做到了？2010的自己，為自己打分數能得幾分呢？2010年認識的朋友，有幾個你會記得，有哪幾個會記得你？不管對或錯都已經過去，嚮往更好的明天吧！

HAPPY NEW YEAR, have a great year ahead (:

就让故事 在此时此刻画下句点

時間看清一個人
開始令人昏沉沉
他像變了一個人 太蠻橫 　　
她開始懸著疑問
不想再等他承認
不再要任何傷痕

因为曾经陷得太深 摔得太重 伤得太痛
所以不再太轻易地相信 太天真地接受 太放任地爱上

承认一开始 没有怀疑你的为人
可是时间越长 感情越好 我慢慢地在你身上看到他的影子

没错 我并没有马上把你在我心里判下死刑
毕竟 我不应该 因为一个人的所作所为 就完全对另一个人失去信任

可是 预料的事 接二连三地发生
我真的希望一切只是巧合而已 但我知道 并不是

庆幸的是 这一次 没有完全地投入
所以失望多过于难过 而过了 也就算了

本来只是想要 让一切就这样过去
但 现在竟然确认了 也知道 错的并不是我 而是他
这终究该告一段落了...


on a much much happier note,
JJ 完美新世界 MV is out!
and album should be coming out soon! YAY! :D

我懷念的 是無話不說 我懷念的 是一起做夢

在把簡訊傳出去的前一秒 我猶豫了決定還是不要好了
然後把那想了半天的一句明明就很簡單的問候刪掉了

不知道什麼時候連一句 '你好不好' 都變得那麼困難

無聊地讀了曾經的簡訊
先是被簡訊的數量 然後是被一起聊過的話題嚇到
認識得不是很久 卻有那麼熟的時候

時間真的可以沖淡一切 包括友誼

只是讀書讀到很累 突然想起你曾經說過的一些話...


" 每一段记忆，都有一个密码。只要时间、地点、人物组合正确，无论尘封多久，那人那情那景都将在遗忘中重新拾起。你也许会说“不是都已经过去了吗？”…其实过去的只是时间，你依然逃不出，想起了就微笑或悲伤的宿命，那种宿命本叫“无能为力”…… "

let's rearrange the periodic table and put uranium and iodine together (:

Biochem midterm was such a demoralising one.
1st year, 1st sem, 1st module, 1st test.
screwing it up just doesn't feel good.
and it's 20% leh! :(

Just have to work doubly hard for the rest of the subjects and final exams!
it's chemistry anyway, i won't have any complaints about spending more time on it.
plus i've to prove the point that i'm going to do well in something i have passion in.
it doesn't mean you are good just because you follow the norms.

Being with kids are one of the reasons that brighten up my day.
Be the reason for them to smile, and they'll be the reason for you to smile (:

Sometimes, you just get tired of some things and feel like giving it up and letting it go, but you know you can't.
And so you hang on, then look back and realise how much better you would have been if you'd not persisted.

Whether it was worth it, i really don't know.

Just the way you are.

这世界有太多 会消失的美丽

应该忘记的 就不要记得
应该扔掉的 就不要留住
应该删掉的 就不要保存
应该放手的 就不要握紧

回忆是你留下最美丽的痕迹
也是你留下最痛的纪念品
美在于它发生过 证明我曾经拥有过
痛在于我失去了 不会继续地占有了

能不能 让这个曾经等待着你简讯的手机 先暂时地关掉 然后再渐渐地和你失去联络?
能不能 让这个曾经爱过你的心 先暂时地把你放下 然后再慢慢地忘记你?


"让懂你的人爱你 别舍不得过去只为了可惜"

多的是 你不知道的事

Let me do some update proper.

It's been about 8 months of holidays.
Next week i'll be back in school, a different school with different people, starting my 4 years academic as an undergraduate.
I like how my timetable has chem lessons and ONLY chem lessons :D
but because there's not enough AUs, im suppose to take electives but i haven't decide what.
there's already 1 in my timetable though, just the one i wanted. forensic science! :)

Just finished reading a compilation of A Child Called 'It', The Lost Boy and A Man Named Dave.
I feel so much for Dave, and the abuse part made me teared.
Still can't believe how cruel one can get especially when the one you're abusing is your own child.
Yet, Dave doesn't bear grudges, and blamed neither his mother for the abuse nor his father for not reporting the abuse.
Pick up the book if you can, there's lots of lessons to be learnt in there.


'In life you're going to make mistakes, you're going to fall down, but it's getting up that counts.'

-Dave Pelzer



我知道 有些事不能强求
所以我不会勉强 顺其自然吧 :)

摺紙飛機 碰到雨天 終究會墜落

Don't let the words sink in, for what they said that means so much to you means nothing to them.

Don't fall for them so easily, for they will only be there when they need you but not when you need them.

I broke both the rules, again.

Because i thought you were different.

When you learn how to die, you learn how to live.

So much for convincing mr png about my perspective of life.
Now i have a totally different answer as to what is life, right after reading a book.

Picked up Tuesdays with Morrie yesterday.
And im glad i did so, it was a book i've been wanting to read.

Death is part of life. haha i understand now.

"The tension of opposites?

Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when you know you should never take anything for granted."

- From, Tuesdays with Morrie.

3: Filling it with happiness.

A dream within a dream within a dream.
It's the first time i come out of the theatres and feel like watching the movie again.
definitely. I NEED to watch this one more time (:

越难了解的东西 我们越想去了解它, 是不是?!

the plot, the storyline.. No wonder this movie took a decade to be completed.



Happiness, Satisfaction, Contentment.
And i hope you'll always stay the same, coz there's nothing about you i would change (:

I bleed my heart out just for you.

Lots of thoughts ran through my mind as i watched.


会不会真的有这么一天
想做什么 说什么 都已经太迟了?

是不是时候 要学着把每一天当作是生命的最后一天
才会无怨无悔 才会真正地珍惜生命的每一刻?


A hug, a smile and three words.
And knowing that you're right there with me, it's enough.

with a smile like yours, how can i not smile back?

'...... 然后你会开始忘记我.'

'我不会.'

trust is like paper, once crumpled it can't be perfect.

"I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

— Marilyn Monroe

罗志祥新加坡舞法舞天演唱会好看惨了 惨了 惨了!!!

他哭惨了 而且他在空中翻三圈 leh!

hahaha, 罗主任教我们说谎! =x

你跳得越卖力 你唱得越尽力

我的荧光棒就挥得更用力!

演唱会真的很棒 国王辛苦了!

那短短两个小时的回忆 已经刻在脑海里了 (:

我本来还很失望他竟然搞砸了'幸福不灭'

我等了这么久 你竟然跟我忘词!!!!!!

hahaha 不过 多亏他是聪明机智的罗主任

乱唱的歌词 听了让我还蛮开心的!

不怪你啦~
:D

Pause.

i wna keep this post short because im tired.

so actually i wanted to blog about how cute was JJ's video,

the one he made specially for junyang's wedding.

and also a part of ylbfb that i watched at least 10 times,

where xiaozhu got scared by a cockroach...

but i guess this is more important than anything else.

one by one, they enlisted...
nich, bk and takumi (who i dun have a photo with!)

they probably won't see this anytime soon but still...

do take care in NS, friends! :D

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and something else i won't forget.
happy 19th birthday bestie! (:




should i, should i not.
yuanchang at jurong point tmr!!

他的世界只有她.'

zi char, singing, fireworks
squeezed in the crowd, missed the last train, cab down to airport
a nice place to spend the night, just a bit too cold.
and i get goosebumps listening to them share stories.

Macs big breakfast, my first 2010 meal.
took 27 home, totally drained. the rest too.

great night without sleep with great people :D
thanks for making the first day of 2010 so special (:


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i thought it was over, but i saw something that made me smile.