truly, madly, deeply ♥

because i am counting on a new beginning, a reason for living, a deeper meaning (:

i think i am such a slacker :(
i don't even feel like doing my tutorials even after much procrastination.
actually its not really about the tutorials, its about 放空ing, 发呆ing too much!

Imagine you're studying, and half of the time... you're reading words like Nicotinamide adenine dinucleotide, chymotrypsin and phosphofructokinase.
LOL, i thought it was cool to understand long long words.. erm not anymore :/


no more feeling guilty! ♥ (:

I wish i'm smarter.

对不起, 我知道对不起不够
但是还是对不起!
我真的是 blur ttm! :(

I really feel bad leh. 真的发自内心的那一种.
希望你以后不要那么 suay 再遇到我了.
随便一个人 应该都比我好吧. lol

其实 庆幸的是... 也就剩下最后的一次 lah.

现在说出来 感觉比较好 :D
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And I know the night is fading
And I know the time's gonna fly
And I'm never gonna tell you
Everything I gotta tell you
But I know I gotta give it a try

Nicky Lee's songs are really nice (:

I wish I was cosine squared and you were sine squared...

so that together, we could be one (:

Recess week is finally here!
but there's just too much things to do within this 7 pathetic days :(

cca camp, Kbox (seriously, i can't do without one), catch up with friends, STUDY!!
And studying means doing tutorials, catch up on school work, revising for midterms!
haiyo, so i have to forgo things like catching up on ylbfb, shopping...

Midterms is worrying me, especially for physics.
I tried, and im still trying, but me and physics just don't have chemistry :/
I still have that passion for Math so it's not that bad.
Biochem and org chem have got lots of stuffs to memorise.

then those stupid rashes have to come back again.
taking medicine after medicine, pills after pills, it just doesn't work.
i really don't want to scratch them, but often i will scratch till it bleeds and now my legs and hands are full of scars :(



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I knew it will end up this way, because it always does.
C6H12O6 + 6 O2 -> 6 CO2 + 6 H2O
Combustion begins and sweet things don't last, get it?



Am proud being a chemist, i really am (:

總有個角落 會讓你想起我

School's not that bad, because i love chemistry! :D

I've been very very patient with Physics, it's a good thing i haven't tear up any Physics lecture notes/tutorials.

Lab is actually fun and i really look forward to Monday mornings! (other than the lab report that comes with it)

Trial and error to find out my allergy is tiring.

I want more time, and I want everyone to have more time!

Since its fate that brought us to where we are now, let's just leave it to fate to decide where we should end up as well.

I'll turn a blind eye on some things, and be contented.

I really miss looking forward to that 5pm for yu le bai fen bai!

JJ album is probably coming out this year end, woohoo! :D

I am really really craving for Koi milk tea...

你会保护我吗?

with abit of help from eileen, i finally heard everything :D

如果我赋予你生命 你会不会将我砍倒

如果我被污染毒害 你会不会伸出援手

如果我将窒息而死 你会不会无动于衷

假如我是一棵树

假如我是海洋

假如我是天空

假如我是地球

你会保护我吗?

Pause.

i wna keep this post short because im tired.

so actually i wanted to blog about how cute was JJ's video,

the one he made specially for junyang's wedding.

and also a part of ylbfb that i watched at least 10 times,

where xiaozhu got scared by a cockroach...

but i guess this is more important than anything else.

one by one, they enlisted...
nich, bk and takumi (who i dun have a photo with!)

they probably won't see this anytime soon but still...

do take care in NS, friends! :D

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and something else i won't forget.
happy 19th birthday bestie! (:




should i, should i not.
yuanchang at jurong point tmr!!

习惯就好

i should learn to be less truthful at times...

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pizza hut yesterday!
supposed to be an ice cream treat, but it became a dinner treat that wasn't even my treat afterall.
hahah and in return, i got takumi self-made pineapple tart and kinder joy! :D

so next, i'll wish and hope and pray that takumi gets into airforce!
because then, i will get my ben & jerry's treat! (:

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tomorrow's the chalet!
it would be great if i could stay out with them for the night.
but there's work on monday :(

but anyways, it would be another fun day out with 8.1 :D

i stared at the photo, for far too long.

'last night i looked up at the stars
and matched each one with a reason why i love you.
i was doing great, but i ran out of stars.'
(:

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saw thomas ong during lunchtime! :D
haha, regretted nvr talk much with him (but yea at least had a short conv!)
but im happy that i took the photo with him!
if daniel didn't help approach him, i doubt i'll dare to.
hahaha, let's go lau par sat eat more often! :D

and he asked 'do you all watch diminishing horizons?'
yeaaa and i feel so proud that i watch every single episode ^^
but this wednesday is the last episode already :(

你是这个世界旅行中最美的风景

'ghostly nicholas and bengkoon'
seriously, if idk its because of them jumping, i'll freak out looking at this photo.

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i look TALLER, right? :D

huihui and yeqi!
we finally took photos! (:

guitarists! :D

dined at pariss with them yesterday.
haha yea must thank ignatius for the treat, a very expensive treat!
10 people and the bill came up to around $470! D:
the food was alright, but 一次就够了. haha...

great food, great company (:

it's been awhile since the days we used to talk during guitar pracs.
i really miss the times! now, my guitar is really collecting dust at a corner D:

argh it's work again tmr..
i think i love weekends even more now than i used to.
at least i do look forward to going back to school during school days.

'I tried to sleep, but instead I played out impossible scenarios in my head'
and i thought i was the only one who'll do that.
hahaaa facebook really has got anything and everything!

提起你名字 心还跳动

behind the scenes of 背对背拥抱 MV!

awww JJ, 什么不在! 我在 leh! ):

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aah i fell down just now! goodness...
it was quite paiseh.. but anws, it's the floor's fault!
damn slippery lah ):

tmr 我要搬出去了...
just when im getting used to that small cosy corner...
far from minghui, and even further from meiqi le! ):

我真的有在想 以后要读什么 要做什么
心里其实有答案了 但能不能完成 也就只能看着办吧.

i want to talk, i need you to cheer me up.
but its always not the right time ):
匿名的好友, 或许也是属于你的歌.

i just realise today's post is full of ):

2010 will be a better year, i hope! :D

执著是一种负担 放弃是一种遗憾

i finally got my copy of 100天!
yeaah! and u-weekly!
JJ! :D

niceeeeee, he looks more mature in this album.
and mose of the songs are 抒情 ones..
:D


there is JJ PARTY 4! (:


加油! - 林俊傑

he looks so cute in that attire! :D


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got home from cruise yesterday.
went Penang on saturday, great experience.
then klang ytd, haha i suddenly remember chris.

i doubt i'll ever see that eyecandy again!
he probably flew back to his country already lah :(

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was looking back at some stuffs...
haha there are 75! (:

y'know, i actually miss school...

100天

because many were saying he got thinner,
JJ tweets: 我沒有變瘦啦，你看，圓圓的！哈哈

like seriously cute, i feel like pinching his cheeks! haha!

i think JJ's album leaked that day,
but anyways he said its officially available online!
heard all the songs already, waiting for 18th! :D

as usual it's so JJ style.
they're things i can preempt even before his album release.

with more than 10 songs, lasts me longer (:
definitely a song with both chinese version and an english one. X, still moving under gunfire!
always add abit of fun inside! 最佳男歌手 谢谢电脑! LOL
i have a feeling 表达爱 was re-recorded, maybe it wasn't but i felt it was different.

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went ktv with liyun, wanglu and yiwei on monday.
i woke up with a sorethroat and i couldnt sing! :(
but still, i enjoyed sitting there and listening to them singing. different feeling :D
and i got to know more nice songs that i can learn and sing next time!

so i came home with like high fever, sorethroat and everyth.
zzz went to the doc's, it cost a lot and got myself so much medicine! ._.
now that's call inefficient allocation of resources due to asymmetric information resulting in mkt failure.

totally lost my voice :/

hope i'll be well enough to go on cruise on friday!



i love JJ! ^^

第几个100天 (:

kakuro puzzle is fun! :D
it shall accompany me till i can finally go out next week!

yeps so im over and done with it already.
yea it was scary luh, i just hope i won't have to do it again.

and ytd 4 friends surprised me by turning up 'somewhere near my house'
hahaha, shocked me. but really, thanks for coming! (:
my room's in such a mess after exams, and i haven't had the chance to tidy up all the stuffs yet!
LOL, so next time then come up lah, ok! :D

JJ album releasing soon!

demo version! :D



100天前 誰也無法預測會發生什麼
這經歷的100天 過了多久都無法遺忘…….
沒有一絲聲音的冰冷 關上門獨自對抗
只能用僅有的力氣 打開那一直陪伴的黑白鍵
想著那愛人時候的自己 純真的模樣 覺得溫暖
倒數計時 開始
再見面的時候 說一聲加油
不再輕易放手 可以一起擁抱的未來
不管第幾個100天 都繼續期待著……

in life, there's always ups and downs.

and know the ones who are always there for you.

it's a nightmare worse than taking A levels.
i rather take A levels 10x :/

i always asked myself why, but i stopped asking.
sometimes, not everything happens with a reason.
it just happen, and maybe that's what you call fate.

i'll be fine.

because i know im not facing this alone ;
because i know i'll be brave enough to get over it ;
because i know, it's going to be okay.

(:

HAHAHA at MINGHUI's PHONECALL!
seriously cheered me up and lol, i would have go if i were still outside but i just reached home.
:D

O-V-E-R OVER O OVER! (:

陳餘一: 终于等到这一天... 我自由了!

although chem p1 was tough, i think it wasn't that bad.
afterall, im pinning all my hopes on it to pull up my grades.

aah but there's doc appt tmr ):
really hope no eye drops please!
not being able to see clearly for a day is torturous...

no use worrying about how i did for the papers now eh,
enjoy the few months before the release of results!


find a job ;
kbox ;
really start learning guitar (我真的觉得这两年都在混的, LOL) ;
watch many many shows ;

hahaa idk what else.

i can have back my hobby of sleeping already.
and finally have a good sleep tonight.
:D

1moreweeeeek!

i don't feel apologetic anymore,
if what sr's friend said is true...
RAHHH! im afraid i'll start scolding. lol.

names like Nevado del Ruiz and Nyirangongo are seriously ._.

why must 金曲奖 and everything comes right before A levels! zzz

chlorhexidine gluconate is awful!
ulcers, swells and tongue is even peeling?!
RAH i should never trust dentists.


lol im just here to vent my anger.

and say... 黄靖伦 is cute! :D

fail to plan, and you'll plan to fail.

freezed myself inside library until 4plus,
then went yishun, celebrated weiting's birthday! :D

the super cute birthday card, done by BRENDA :)

and we coincidently used the same colours to write our messages!

jiayou and all the best for A's!
then it'll be lisa's birthday the next time we meet up, which we've all the plans ALREADY! :)


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it's chlorhexadine!
everyday i do dilution. then gargle it and split out.
i can't rinse my mouth after that, so i wonder how many moles of chlorohexadine i've swallowed.
and i don't like it, weird medical + its mint-flavoured taste D:

wait till i become a chemist and i'll invent something else that taste nicer.
maybe something that contains ester (sweet-smelling mah)
LOL, although i doubt ester will kill any bacteria :)

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about 20 odd days to A levels.
unprepared, but all i can do is just study and practice as much as i can.

i really appreciate friends who help.
and teachers like mr wong who are always there, ever willing to give consultations! :)

i think i should do something in return, but i don't know what.
perhaps it's just as simple as working even harder and get that A.

im fine, and i'll be fine.

thanks for everything :)

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一路上有你苦一点也愿意 就算是为了分离与我相遇
一路上有你痛一点也愿意 就算这辈子注定要和你分离

Sometimes you sacrifice and take 2 steps back just to move 5 steps forward.

he smiled.

i like this photo, from jj's blog.

he proudly took it with his new M8.2

haha, is photography that addictive?

i see that he is so obsessed with taking photos :)

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有些事 过了 也就算了

好不好 也不重要了

尽力了 也就够了


这一次 我没有原因 更没有借口




shijie wants to do well for A levels.

it's the last lap, she's tired, but she can't stop.

就像来不及许愿的流星 再怎么美丽也只能是曾经

some casual talk, some random thoughts.
but if you're leading your life happily, i think i should.. too.


k-ing.
katong laksa.
dessert.
boomz.


pretty random but im happy 吴冠达 won the magic competition!
:D

getting back chem paper 3 tmr, and im really really worried D:


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i love this song (:

鄭中基 - 怪胎



他们说 我很怪 尤其对于爱
老犯错 太沉默 老是学不乖
才开始就像逃跑 从来不问未来
像个贪玩的小孩

他们说 谈恋爱 是一种负债
很甜蜜 很花钱 很需要忍耐
可是孤单要人命 没有人能例外
得跟命运摊牌

天知道有多累 爱我这种人
没错你快些离开
也许真的是你欠我的债
偏偏你不醒来

为什么喜欢我 我这种怪胎
像原始人 活在新时代
外表叛逆但心不坏 不轻易恋爱
我相信永远不存在

别爱上我 我这种怪胎
我的人生一路在修改
我说爱情是海底针 真心很难买
忘了我 让我一个人自由自在

开着车 大声吼 需要看看海
网络上寻着宝　最近有点宅
我跟世界的比赛
可是裁判没来 奖状就是无奈

i've been obedient, didn't skip meals or eat irregular meals.




but the backflow of acid into my esophagus is hurting my throat again.




and i don't feel too well.





at this time.




why.