take my hand, close your eyes

hello silent reader! haha (:

rahh i need to stop yawning in lectures and start doing my tutorials proper.
Starting to get lost in Econs lecture too..
sian... 竟然是 '自己挖洞跳进去' one, as quoted from yuting.
what was i thinking when i chose Econs for my GERPE?! ):
somemore tutorial everyone 抢着回答 because got class participation points.
my last resort would be to S/U it.
aah well, we'll see how.

anw, i still think it's going to be a good semester.
great tutors (really pretty biochem tutor!) and awesome labmates! :D

JJ TMR! ♥

也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏

to start with, this semester isn't that smooth-sailing
too many things happened, too many things going the wrong way :(

i just hope my lab tomorrow will turn out alright.
the pills are making me drowsy, so i've decided to pause my medication tmr and go ahead with labwork.

tomorrow's february already.
abit too fast ah D:

the wet weather reminds me of this song.

下雨天 - Lara

下雨天了怎麼辦 我好想你
我不敢打給你 我找不到原因
為什麼失眠的聲音 變得好熟悉
沈默的場景 做你的代替
陪我等雨停

期待讓人越來越沉溺
誰和我一樣 等不到他的誰
愛上你我總在學會 寂寞的滋味
一個人撐傘 一個人擦淚
一個人好累

怎樣的雨 怎樣的夜
怎樣的我能讓你更想念
雨要多大 天要多黑
才能夠有你的體貼

其實 沒有我你分不出那些
差別 結局還能多明顯
別說你會難過
別說你想改變
被愛的人不用道歉

這星球 讓我們 用笑聲來推動 :)

School starts already actually but my lessons officially starts tmr! :D

It's back to printing lecture notes, doing tutorials, long train rides and tiring weekdays...
Taking Economics this semester, i hope i can manage!
And Mastering Comm is sucha project-based module that i kind of hate it even before i've attended any lessons.
Groupwork and tutorial participation... sian ttm! ):

And i've got to juggle Math and Physics, as well as Chem and Biochem.
CCA kicks in, with tutoring kids on Sats and meetings for planning of VOC this year.
This semester is surely not easy, definitely.

I know there are some things i've to put aside at this time.
There's enough things to juggle, enough problems to worry about...
We can't expect a perfect solution for anything and everything.
I've kicked the habit of being a perfectionist, waiting for the time to start and end things perfectly, because some things are just not meant to be.

有时候 包容不完美 比执着于完美 来得容易 (:

On a sidenote, looking at Chemistry notes makes me happy :D

let's rearrange the periodic table and put uranium and iodine together (:

Biochem midterm was such a demoralising one.
1st year, 1st sem, 1st module, 1st test.
screwing it up just doesn't feel good.
and it's 20% leh! :(

Just have to work doubly hard for the rest of the subjects and final exams!
it's chemistry anyway, i won't have any complaints about spending more time on it.
plus i've to prove the point that i'm going to do well in something i have passion in.
it doesn't mean you are good just because you follow the norms.

Being with kids are one of the reasons that brighten up my day.
Be the reason for them to smile, and they'll be the reason for you to smile (:

Sometimes, you just get tired of some things and feel like giving it up and letting it go, but you know you can't.
And so you hang on, then look back and realise how much better you would have been if you'd not persisted.

Whether it was worth it, i really don't know.

I wish I was cosine squared and you were sine squared...

so that together, we could be one (:

Recess week is finally here!
but there's just too much things to do within this 7 pathetic days :(

cca camp, Kbox (seriously, i can't do without one), catch up with friends, STUDY!!
And studying means doing tutorials, catch up on school work, revising for midterms!
haiyo, so i have to forgo things like catching up on ylbfb, shopping...

Midterms is worrying me, especially for physics.
I tried, and im still trying, but me and physics just don't have chemistry :/
I still have that passion for Math so it's not that bad.
Biochem and org chem have got lots of stuffs to memorise.

then those stupid rashes have to come back again.
taking medicine after medicine, pills after pills, it just doesn't work.
i really don't want to scratch them, but often i will scratch till it bleeds and now my legs and hands are full of scars :(



-

I knew it will end up this way, because it always does.
C6H12O6 + 6 O2 -> 6 CO2 + 6 H2O
Combustion begins and sweet things don't last, get it?



Am proud being a chemist, i really am (:

nyjc ♥

i entered jc, not knowing why i chose this route.
back then, i wanted to study psychology because it was something (i thought) i had passion in.
but i contemplated, and was worried i'll regret if i didn't like it.
jc was a 'i have no idea what i want to be, so don't major in anything yet' choice.

so my results brought me to nyjc.
my subject combination brought me to 0824.
my passion brought me to guitar ensemble.

and in turn,

nyjc brought me a nice and conducive place to study, with nice P and VP.
0824 brought me a great class of (almost) girls, and the best teachers i could ever have.
guitar ensemble brought me a wonderful bunch of good friends that brightened up my jc life.

ok, pictures! (thanks to whoever i took these photos from!)

mr wong! most dedicated teacher who is ever there to give us consultations.
i feel bad for not doing well for Math, i promise i'll do my best for A's! :)


i enjoyed being part of the clique :)

geography class. geography ROCKS! :D

the familiar LT4, i think i'll miss sitting there and listening to lectures.

from Mrs Chong and Mdm Shahida! (:
very sweet lah..

Mr Low and Mdm Shahida!
one teacher who made GP fun and seems not so difficult to pass,
another who made me found my passion in Chemistry!
:D

and finally... probably no more 'forward to all' SMSes from mr low already.

so don't hate receiving my SMSes le! haha!

ps I want to watch the teachers' videos again!
very nice, and the teachers are so cute! :D

~

ok, yesterday part II.
met up with 8.1 to celebrate Adam's birthday!

helium balloon!
and we all know helium is lighter than air.
so helium balloon floats in the air.

had a hard time trying to get it back.
chairs, brooms, umbrellas and whatever we could think of.

shan't elaborate, it'll make this post very long. haha..

All the best for A's, everyone! :)

happy teachers' day :D

hahahaa...
i like this photo because i think i don't look v short (relative to mrlow)! :D



im feeling lazy need to go study,
so i shall upload the rest of the photos soon, when i feel like it. haha! (: (:

;D

"俊杨加油，我知道你是最棒的！他们没有机会看到你真正的实力"


JJ wrote this leh, so meiqi! i don't know what he saying but still...
this means he hasn't forgotten junyang! (of course!) :D


i hope JJ has recovered from his fever already (:

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i have yet to do my math regression tut! ):
still, i think the few hours of chem consultation just now was spent worthwhile :D
about $160 worth of mr low's time. LOL


hahaa i enjoyed today's night study. fun and productive (:
but tiring.... ):



k goodnights! ;D

故事未完成.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE! (:
hope she enjoyed that day's food tour!
we gave her a lighter so i hope she doesn't go and smoke because of that. LOL

xD

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4hours break today.
Managed to do abit of math in library (:

after a tiring day in school, there's always a need to watch abit of JJ ^^
his cuteness never fails to cheer me up, so that im in a better mood to continue studying.
haha!

JJ said he and his fans got marriage cert! (:
no joke, he said it himself :D

if he, being an english speaking person, actually worked so hard to brush up on his chinese,
i think that's enough reason for me to work hard and improve on my GP too.


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now i understand...

一个拥抱 换不换的到相爱的记忆
一个叹息 讨不讨的到儿时的嬉戏

多做多错 少做少错.
so, after so many trials and experiments,
conclusion is... write short essays (:

aww my shoes spoilt
有感情了 leh.. how can it just leave me like that ):
i still don't bear to throw it away, hopefully i can get it mend.

so after school, went amk hub to get my new shoes!
switched from nike to adidas this time. haha...
realising that JJ just visited adidas store in beijing, he must like adidas too... :D

i love my new shoes because it's BLACK!
yea right, damn cool. i like (:

still, to me, spending over 100bucks for a pair of shoes is a waste of money.
i could attend a concert with the same amount of money.
hahaha ok, i know.. maybe to you all concert also waste money...



random: JJ took a photo of Show and post on his blog!
HAHAH i think the 2 of them 越来越好了 (:



我们事过了境迁之后彷佛不再那么的直接
那个画面 停止不了的想念 怎么时间还是冲淡一切

it's all about perceptions.

a twitter account, to follow, not to tweeeeeet.
:D


yesterday was NIGHT STUDY trial 1
Super Junior (Sorry Sorry. EUNHYUK AND YESUNG!)
hahaha total distraction.

BUT it was effective!
managed to go through all the Energetics questions again.
and start Math hypothesis (with so much difficulty)
hahaha but i felt happy that i did something.

(hehh not like today, like NOW, staring into the comp... blogging D:)

LOL! but im staying back in school tmr!
somemore, dinner is provided! (aww, but i think i have to bring more food!)

oh speaking of food, hahaa yesterday..
we all know what.
really, Mr Kwek is super nice!
i think it's cool to have such a great principal.
xD


today!
happy birthday Mdm Shahida!
yea, 0824s celebrated for her. haha (:





Wilber's autograph session turned into hugging session.
HAHAHA! i think that was a pretty nice substitute, since he couldn't sign
(he hurt his hand lah, ouch..)
next time got chance i really must go see him!


you wanna say love love love love love love
and baby girl i say okay okay
身体贴紧我 用体温做回答
看你眼里有一句话 和我的一样吗

那就是love love love love love love
and baby girl i say okay okay
真实的触感爱不只是童话
就深深坠入
双人舞步里彼此慢慢欣赏





许志安 is funny. hahaha! and his songs are nice! xD

4.5 days for each step.

95 days!


i regretted entering a jc. but that was last year.
now i regret regretting.
i wish jc life was longer, i wish it could have been more than 2 years.

im grateful, to be blessed with the best teachers.

so i really must do well.

i know my strengths, im pinning all my hopes on Chem and Math for As.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY 小猪 TMR !
:D

'say what needs to be said'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROYSON! (ytd)

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIHUI! (today)

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eclipse day! too bad we don't witness it in singapore, and i didn't even get to watch it on tv ):

-

now that there's work to do for both lects and tuts,
i can't cope with my work anymore.

and all the upcoming tests.
sigh, you tell me where to even find time to study for them! ):

i can laugh and joke about my Econs grade, but i guess its also time something needs to be done. how can i keep failing and expect to do well in A's?


JJ cheers me up.
makes me feel more energetic,
and a source of motivation to work hard.

so i watched a few videos of him youtube,

是为了走更长远的路 不是偷懒 k!
hahaha ;D

i hate the number 44.

GP and math, both 44..
like 1more mark to pass?! *bangs wall*

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odd week tues means chem day! :D

chem result is not too good, but not too bad. expected.
should be a D, if i did shade my OTAS sheet correctly.
of course, im not pleased with just a D. could have been better.

D is for disappointment :/

FULL structural formula, mechanism and things like that.
i could almost imagine mr low screaming at me for such mistakes. LOL


whatever results i've gotten for mids,

i tell myself this is the last time im going to disappoint my tutors.
this is the last time i can afford to.

in about 7weeks, i should score for prelims to boost my confidence for A's.
in about 4 months, it'll be A's.





i'll study harder, longer and smarter :)

crying over spilt milk is a lesson learnt.

Math results is horrible ):
P1: 35/100, P2: 36.5/60
this kind of weird results... is 没有人会拿的咯.
i score even more for a paper over 60 than a paper which is over 100 -.-

sigh.. but expected yah. i knew P1 was totally screwed up.
i tried my best to revive it with P2, am happy with P2 except for careless mistakes.
if i hadn't made them, i could have pass.
zzz...


i hate to disappoint, and i really hope i don't.
especially tmr's CHEM paper...

if i fail chem, there's nth else i can pass already D:



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i knew JJ was back in singapore,
but i didnt know... he went stefanie sun's concert lehhh!
goodness! if i'd go too, perhaps i would have met him,
perhaps he would be around me, within my view, for 2hours or so.

OMGGGGG, i would have fainted. LOL!







friends always appear at the right time.
to listen to my complaints, to cheer me up :D

bits and pieces, here and there.

just something random to start the post:

hayami mokomichi! :) :)
i can freaking scream in the midst of the night whilst watching Absolute boyfriend!


photo taking yesterday. then surprise bdae celebration for lt at fish and co (:


need to start doing tuts already.
but next week gonna get back papers.. and why MATH has just got to be the first one. D:
its one that i really want to pass but i knew i screwed up P1.


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LOL, imagine afk for an hour watching tv...
then i was greeted with this when i came back:

shocking leh. i thought my msn got problem.. haha!
but i got the picture after a hard time reading the conv they had while i was away.

erm, haha speechless...

next week's apparently gonna be so difficult to pull through.
results, what could be worse?
D:

Define love. Define you.

虽然晚了两年认识 但你们还是让我找到真正的友谊
虽然你们应该叫2E2的 不过你们还是因为现在是 2E2 + 2E1 的brenda and shijie 改叫8.1

steamboat on the floor, and an empty house with electricity (not even water) only.
it was a nice experience though (:

回忆依然是回忆 它也只能活在记忆中
even though we can't relive all those days in our memories,
但我相信 我们拥有的回忆 不会只停留在这里 (:



we know how much each and everyone of us means to each other.
I LOVE YOU ALL! :D


you're all very important. so don't split up, ok?
let it remain like this, because i like it.

sounds familiar?




because it is :D


"你们很重要 不要分散, 好不好?
一直保持这样 因为我很喜欢."

- 昨天躲在一旁吃 还把我们整碗(倒得很辛苦的)辣椒拿到自己面前的人

(:


~


met up with zw and am to go thru' the chem qns.
ended up stil had to ask mrlow almost all the qns. hahaa.
still, today's revision was quite effective. cleared lots of doubts (:
but, think im really lagging behind because i haven't do OSP! ):


tmr Econs consultation i not prepared lah -.-








i dreamt of xiaozhu yesterday! :D
-ie. no more cockroaches-

要你拥有 会长大的幸福

it's the last day of school! hahaa couldn't feel the holidays coming, yet.

anws holidays will be like muggin' all the way lah.
looking at the pile of work to be revised really makes me panic.

hahaa right, birthday is not an excuse to slack.
i shall go back to sch and go for chem consultation (who says first day won't have people go one. HAHA!)
lol, okay cannot be lah. i haven't even revise anything yet.
but go sch library study alone may be a good choice for this holiday.
got aircon + no distraction :D

hopefully this coming wed can meet up with dear too! xD


GP midyears today, i hope it wasn't too bad.
paper1 questions were tough, no choice but left with tech question.
rmbed a few points (phew, i'd read the essay outline last night)
just that many people did that question, and i guess others' will be relatively better than mine.
hope can pass! :D

Econs extra lesson was Zzz...
i was sleepy lah, but tried staying awake.
nothing went in, i just like copy and copy notes for the whole 2hours.
(i kept thinking of Tank!)


yeaa not random, haha coz Tank's new album release today!
listened to all the songs already, quite nice.
but 如果我变成回忆 seems like the song i like most still.
should i buy it now, or after they repackage? haha.. (:


circle line! :D
hahaa probably taking train home aft sch next time already!
(provided not alone with yw, very dangerous. hahaha! xD)



TJ guitar concert with guitarists tmr! (:

it's a word, that starts with P.

yeaaaa this is so cute!

and...

badtz maru! very cute right right RIGHHHHHT? xD
it has got a -.- face. lol! btw it's a penguin, i just knew that!

hahah, i am such a random person. hee thanks for your help eileen dear!
without you, i think i'll never find out what is it called. lol. ^^

HAHAHA im like falling in love with all these cartoon characters, for some random reason i also don't know what. lol.
what a good timing, when im just about to approach a supposedly more mature age. hmm.. xD

hahaa anws i kop this photo from my cousin's blog :D
- my plate of food that day at my grandma's hse! (:

notice the double egg yolks?
hee im like very WOAed by it! lol..
because it wasn't just this egg, but ALL the eggs in that same tray bought!

lots of egg yolks, i like. haha! xD

yeaa taboo's fun, reminds me of sec4 days.
when mr lim, let us create our own words and play! (:
ahahaas today i went up.. one of the word was 'chemistry'. LOL!
i was expecting maybe words like 'JJ' and 'guitar' all that to come out also.
every word that revolves around me. HAHAAA!
of course didn't lah. lol.

(:(:(:
talking to minghui today, makes me feel better. hahaa.
aye not just about ********* but other stuffs as well. xD

oh my like 3 more days to GP midyears?!
i wonder what im doing...





ps im still not tired of listening to 我没有错!
this is like the few rare songs that i can sustain listening to over and over again for almost A WEEK! and still not sick of it leh. oh my...

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these few days, JJ has been updating his blog daily.
i see the side of him smiling, having fun and all.
but i didn't know his 声带 was giving him problems, yet again.

he's still working so hard to bring out the best in every performance, despite the doctor's advice that he should really rest.

i was just thinking, what if he ever strain his voice too much?
so much so that i won't ever get to hear him sing live again ):

please please, take a break and stop working, just for awhile.
i know any other JMs will want you to do so too.

so please take good care of yourself! [:

and im truly proud that he won these 3 awards! (:

~

CHEM SPA IS FINALLY OVER!
yea, last one on Skill A today and like just write for 1whole hour.
hehhh byebye to that thick stack of Skill A i've wrote over the last few weeks! :D

ytd's volleyball match was woa!
exciting. hahaa, didn't regret going to watch!
and i think our sch team played pretty well :D

but something more WOA happened, and i totally witnessed the whole thing.
hahaa, texted dear about it. LOL (just happened to be smsing her so is 顺便 tell her one!)




because the brain isn't like a computer's memory.
the more you press the delete button, the more it stays with you, and the harder it is to forget it.