是你的话太伤人 还是我的心太脆弱

间接的起了冲突

心情从那一刻起的转变

蛮不讲理的行为 我开始明白






我只是怪自己 做得不完美
我只是讨厌自己 达不到你要求的完美



我主动了 我低头认错了
却始终没有得到你的原谅


):

4.5 days for each step.

95 days!


i regretted entering a jc. but that was last year.
now i regret regretting.
i wish jc life was longer, i wish it could have been more than 2 years.

im grateful, to be blessed with the best teachers.

so i really must do well.

i know my strengths, im pinning all my hopes on Chem and Math for As.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY 小猪 TMR !
:D

眼淚贊成我體諒

體諒 - 许志安
作詞：林夕
作曲：雷頌德
編曲/製作：雷頌德


很久沒有和你好好吃飯
也沒有 坐下來談一談你的近況
卻眼看你在不斷 換新裝
我只像旁觀者偷看 我明白已不能作伴
還感謝 你不忍說殘酷的真相
可能 你想我適應孤單
我又怎麼捨得不原諒

你很容易愛上 初戀般擁抱的溫暖
我卻在渴望 終身的對像
這是我們必然的收場

不怪你背叛
改變的只是你在我胸懷裡成長
殘忍的只是我要包容你的夢想
我愛你怎能阻止你活得開朗
眼淚贊成我體諒

謝謝你善忘
讓我知道自己有那麼好的修養
我不要你為了內疚而不安
我要你沒有壓力和別人再交往
不必發覺我（的）內傷

看你眼角眉梢閃著春光
快填滿 我那卑微而偉大的孤單
我不會與你為難
再辛酸 也要成全你的願望
你善變卻一樣善
良用冷淡 來讓我作好最壞預算
為免 我不必要的期望
以為你還會心軟

原來愛的力量
寬容得為失戀療傷
哭泣與微笑結果都一樣
你越狠我越快釋放

'say what needs to be said'

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROYSON! (ytd)

and HAPPY BIRTHDAY HUIHUI! (today)

-

eclipse day! too bad we don't witness it in singapore, and i didn't even get to watch it on tv ):

-

now that there's work to do for both lects and tuts,
i can't cope with my work anymore.

and all the upcoming tests.
sigh, you tell me where to even find time to study for them! ):

i can laugh and joke about my Econs grade, but i guess its also time something needs to be done. how can i keep failing and expect to do well in A's?


JJ cheers me up.
makes me feel more energetic,
and a source of motivation to work hard.

so i watched a few videos of him youtube,

是为了走更长远的路 不是偷懒 k!
hahaha ;D

如果曾经没有拥有 就不会失去

im really really sorry, 24s!
didn't print organic 1 ws, partly coz i didnt notice it was up on litespeed already.
and partly coz i didn't know we need it this weekend.
对不起! ):


-


想很久的问题 若还找不到答案 那不想 应该就是最好的答案


i used to cry when i get horrible results. but not now.
immuned, or perhaps i just don't care already.


hahah i just have to accept that im a science person.
after JC, i shall no longer have to face with Arts subj!
major in CHEM/MATH related stuffs :D

im just going to bear with Geog/Econs/GP for this few more months eh!



还想爱却 调头放手 想要抱住你却混乱沉默

事情如果那么简单那就好了...

shijie is not going to let herself tell minghui 我输了 ever again!
:D

-



some photos from last week! (:

-

不屑 - 黄鸿升

事情如果那么简单那就好了
想让自己不见
瞬间就统统消灭

人类如果没有心脏那就好了
受伤不会流血
悲伤也不会流泪

不需要有同类 传染颓废
不需要愚昧的尊严
不需要去偷窃你的思念
自我安慰

就让我伪装 我嘴角不屑
让孤独乘以更孤独的两倍
允许我保留最后一点点特权
赦免我想念你的心碎

如果我眼神里闪烁不屑
可能我心里一半地已经残废
那一半跟著你走远了的那一天
这一半渐渐地瓦解

如果我还有一点点不屑
别想要说服我纯洁的绝对
我只是世界上物种绝种的绝类
悄悄的失眠了一光年

如果我还有一点点不屑
那是我自己虚荣心在作祟
自以为或许我们有一天会重叠
我可以再爱你第二遍

i hate the number 44.

GP and math, both 44..
like 1more mark to pass?! *bangs wall*

-

odd week tues means chem day! :D

chem result is not too good, but not too bad. expected.
should be a D, if i did shade my OTAS sheet correctly.
of course, im not pleased with just a D. could have been better.

D is for disappointment :/

FULL structural formula, mechanism and things like that.
i could almost imagine mr low screaming at me for such mistakes. LOL


whatever results i've gotten for mids,

i tell myself this is the last time im going to disappoint my tutors.
this is the last time i can afford to.

in about 7weeks, i should score for prelims to boost my confidence for A's.
in about 4 months, it'll be A's.





i'll study harder, longer and smarter :)

crying over spilt milk is a lesson learnt.

Math results is horrible ):
P1: 35/100, P2: 36.5/60
this kind of weird results... is 没有人会拿的咯.
i score even more for a paper over 60 than a paper which is over 100 -.-

sigh.. but expected yah. i knew P1 was totally screwed up.
i tried my best to revive it with P2, am happy with P2 except for careless mistakes.
if i hadn't made them, i could have pass.
zzz...


i hate to disappoint, and i really hope i don't.
especially tmr's CHEM paper...

if i fail chem, there's nth else i can pass already D:



-

i knew JJ was back in singapore,
but i didnt know... he went stefanie sun's concert lehhh!
goodness! if i'd go too, perhaps i would have met him,
perhaps he would be around me, within my view, for 2hours or so.

OMGGGGG, i would have fainted. LOL!







friends always appear at the right time.
to listen to my complaints, to cheer me up :D

bits and pieces, here and there.

just something random to start the post:

hayami mokomichi! :) :)
i can freaking scream in the midst of the night whilst watching Absolute boyfriend!


photo taking yesterday. then surprise bdae celebration for lt at fish and co (:


need to start doing tuts already.
but next week gonna get back papers.. and why MATH has just got to be the first one. D:
its one that i really want to pass but i knew i screwed up P1.


-

LOL, imagine afk for an hour watching tv...
then i was greeted with this when i came back:

shocking leh. i thought my msn got problem.. haha!
but i got the picture after a hard time reading the conv they had while i was away.

erm, haha speechless...

next week's apparently gonna be so difficult to pull through.
results, what could be worse?
D:

Midyears over!

i know i've done badly this time round.
and its really really bad, like cant even pass that kind ):

Math paper 2 was ok, i hope it can help me pass my math.
because paper 1 was..... as good as handing in blank foolscap papers :/
functions, vectors and complex numbers came out for P2, spot on!
i actually prepared for this 3 pure math topic only, other than stats, for P2 :D

Chem, just no time to do lor. paper1 and paper2 today.
shading whatever i like for P1 because no time to even think about the qn.
then P2 i rushed through everything, just in time to finish the paper.

ayeee, well... over le lah.
i hope i pass math and chem,
though this time math is kinda hopeless, paper2 only 60marks.

i don't even want to mention Geog and Econs. LOL.
err yes, and GP. i don't even rmb anything about that.


now, enjoy before all papers start coming back!

:D


想当你隔壁家的supermarket
二十四小时都欢迎光临
幽默风趣无限量供应
任劳任怨都是特价品

想当你一个人的supermarket
你担心的人都不准靠近
幸福快乐买一再送一
预定真爱保护无限期

nice (:

sky, clouds and paper planes.

perfect, but incomplete without you.

a snapshot that spells memories.
thought-provoking.


i wish i'd believe you.
i wish you'd convince me to believe you.


uh well, i've promised myself i won't regret.
just that, sometimes, the feeling still haunts me.





at times, i wonder...
how friends, even close friends, will be shocked if i ever expose the other side of me.

apparently, i have alot of secrets. haha!




Math and Chem left.
persistence.





:D

Brink of law!

突围行动 LAST EPISODE TODAY!

aaah so 紧张, i wonder what will happen to my Rijin!!
that tong zhanlong stabbed him leh!
and jia-er finally showed her true colours,
i hope Rilang gets well and divorce her.


actually i only started watching halfway.
next time gonna watch the front episodes!
i think hk dramas are really nice :D


Tank went on 娱乐百分百 and i actually didnt know! ):
after exams, im going to catch up on those episodes of 娱乐百分百 that i missed!
i hope i have time to do so, before mugging for A's officially starts.

你的眼神 让我偷偷的心跳

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EILEEN DEAR! (:

信心旅途 - 林俊傑 & 何耀珊



收拾我所有的行李
把沉默般希望反擊
和信心一起旅行

這次要學習不逃避
揮別我所有的恐懼
勇敢的走下去

幸福在這一瞬間
慢慢累積
傷口慢慢正開放
不用擔心
感謝有你 一路有你
風雨信心
多麼不容易
你我之間的默契
一點一點
堆積美好的回憶 我會牢記
感謝有你 一路有你
愛讓一切變得更美麗

傷害我會忘記
明天我會繼續
夢想必定不要放棄
只要心向心
愛就永遠不止息


as usual very JJ, me like. (:

~


这一次, 考试真的完了.
都有一种confirm fail 的感觉.
especially maths, 我不知道自己在做什么
其实今天的 chemistry, 是因为没有时间做完 有的话 可能还可以pass.
我背那些 equations 背到这样辛苦 可是我没有时间写!
aaah 我完蛋了...

拿回 papers 的时候 一定fail 惨了 我也一定会哭惨了 ):




长时间保持联络 是一个很大的 contributing factor.
那感觉 是一时的.
笨蛋 都多久了 怎么还在怀疑自己的决定?



有时候 觉得自己的心地邪恶
我为什么会有一些想法
但回想 可能每个人都会跟我一样
因为人都是自私的


我讲的话 都很没有link 我知道
听不懂 没关系 (我在帮 JJ 打歌! haha ok, 不好笑)

乖乖回去读书了!~



:D