he's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar <3

tj concert with guitarists (:
then dined and walked around parkway parade!
heh good, 越远越好. reached home at 10 :D
forgot bring keys, and parents will be back only by then.

but i wasn't late enough. they were not back yet! lol..
i'd to wait at my void deck for awhile,
i was constantly in fear of any cockroaches appearing, thanks to takumi who reminded me of cockroaches the whole day -.-
phew, no cockroaches. i think they don't like me already, really :D


sigh NO PHOTOS! ):
think we have poor memory, wanted to take photos with yeqi and huihui,
and we forgot! when we actually mentioned it more than once. LOL!

there's always next time right, i hope? (:

lazy to write everything nicely...

yeqi's so pro in blowing really HUGE bubbles!
joel's the first one to wish my happy birthday!
cousin got me a really cute, nice and huggable bdae prezzie!
i've got a j1 junior who likes xiaozhu too!
takumi's just 16cm taller, i don't think im short!


xD

要你拥有 会长大的幸福

it's the last day of school! hahaa couldn't feel the holidays coming, yet.

anws holidays will be like muggin' all the way lah.
looking at the pile of work to be revised really makes me panic.

hahaa right, birthday is not an excuse to slack.
i shall go back to sch and go for chem consultation (who says first day won't have people go one. HAHA!)
lol, okay cannot be lah. i haven't even revise anything yet.
but go sch library study alone may be a good choice for this holiday.
got aircon + no distraction :D

hopefully this coming wed can meet up with dear too! xD


GP midyears today, i hope it wasn't too bad.
paper1 questions were tough, no choice but left with tech question.
rmbed a few points (phew, i'd read the essay outline last night)
just that many people did that question, and i guess others' will be relatively better than mine.
hope can pass! :D

Econs extra lesson was Zzz...
i was sleepy lah, but tried staying awake.
nothing went in, i just like copy and copy notes for the whole 2hours.
(i kept thinking of Tank!)


yeaa not random, haha coz Tank's new album release today!
listened to all the songs already, quite nice.
but 如果我变成回忆 seems like the song i like most still.
should i buy it now, or after they repackage? haha.. (:


circle line! :D
hahaa probably taking train home aft sch next time already!
(provided not alone with yw, very dangerous. hahaha! xD)



TJ guitar concert with guitarists tmr! (:

it's a word, that starts with P.

yeaaaa this is so cute!

and...

badtz maru! very cute right right RIGHHHHHT? xD
it has got a -.- face. lol! btw it's a penguin, i just knew that!

hahah, i am such a random person. hee thanks for your help eileen dear!
without you, i think i'll never find out what is it called. lol. ^^

HAHAHA im like falling in love with all these cartoon characters, for some random reason i also don't know what. lol.
what a good timing, when im just about to approach a supposedly more mature age. hmm.. xD

hahaa anws i kop this photo from my cousin's blog :D
- my plate of food that day at my grandma's hse! (:

notice the double egg yolks?
hee im like very WOAed by it! lol..
because it wasn't just this egg, but ALL the eggs in that same tray bought!

lots of egg yolks, i like. haha! xD

yeaa taboo's fun, reminds me of sec4 days.
when mr lim, let us create our own words and play! (:
ahahaas today i went up.. one of the word was 'chemistry'. LOL!
i was expecting maybe words like 'JJ' and 'guitar' all that to come out also.
every word that revolves around me. HAHAAA!
of course didn't lah. lol.

(:(:(:
talking to minghui today, makes me feel better. hahaa.
aye not just about ********* but other stuffs as well. xD

oh my like 3 more days to GP midyears?!
i wonder what im doing...





ps im still not tired of listening to 我没有错!
this is like the few rare songs that i can sustain listening to over and over again for almost A WEEK! and still not sick of it leh. oh my...

i couldn't find the words then...

today, i realise... its been a year or so...
THAT MY FINGERNAILS ARE OF THE SAME LENGTH!
lol! it's been really long since i saw long fingernails on my left hand. xD


an hour of 娱乐百分百 brightens up my mood!
小猪's so cute! as usual! ^^
his english is improving lah, i must work hard on my GP also. haha!!

really miss the days im able to watch ylbfb every single day.
it's like a must in my life, and then i'll be in the mood to proceed to my homework after 6pm (:


i promise i'll be obedient and go back to school for consultations in the holidays. :D:D




'in love with you' is nice! :D

Just A Gentle Whisper Told Me That You'd Gone
Leaving Only Memories; Where Did We Go Wrong?
I Couldn't Find The Words Then So Let Me Say Them Now
I'm Still In Love With You

Tell Me That You Love Me, Tell Me That You Care
Tell Me That You Need Me And I'll Be There
I'll Be There Waitin'...
I Will Always Love You, I Will Always Stay True
No One Else Will Love You Like I Do
Come To Me Now
I Will Never Leave You, I Will Stay Here With You
Through The Good And Bad I Will Stand True
I'm In Love With You...

Now We're Here Together, Yesterday Has Past
Life Is Just Beginning, Close To You At Last
And I Promise To You, I Will Always Be There
I Give My All To You
Living Life Without You
Is More Than I Can Bear...
Hold Me Close
Forever...
And I'll Be There...
I'll Be There For You
I Will Always Love You, I Will Always Stay True
No One Else Will Love You Like I Do
This I Promise
I Will Never Leave You, I Will Stay Here With You
Through The Good And Bad I Will Stand True
Hold Me Closer
Our Love Is Forever, Holding Us Together
Nothing In This World Can Stop Us Now
Love Has Found...
Love Has Found...
A Way...
Yeah...

I'm In Love...
I'm So In Love...
Ooh, I'm In Love...
Yes, I'm In Love...
Ooh... Ha......
I'm So In Love
With You




我们的世界可能有时差

to the extent of infinity.

我想要牵着你的手 一起走到世界尽头 想陪你看每一个 日出和日落

SGC.
Chem file.
GP Essay outline.

pooof, weekend gone just like that.

but... its the last week of the term! (:
and GP paper's on the last day of sch ):

~

i've listened to this song repeatedly for the past 3 days :D

我沒有錯 - 萧闳仁


我坐在咖啡店 落地窗的前面
雨水洒满整条街 和人们的脸
钢琴的黑白键 搭配过的和弦
我们的爱情 什麼和弦

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰
这样的台北还有什麼好留恋

没有错是我自私的举动
给我借口 让我这次能够彻底的放手
让我走 别让我 更痛苦的过
不让你伤的更重
I'll always always love you so

你表情好憔悴 强颜欢笑的脸
你那哭红的双眼 让我好心碎
我愿意 让你飞 不再对你留恋
别让我成为 你的侧脸

是我太伤悲还是城市太灰
这样的台北还有什麼好留恋

伤得更重 伤得更重
也许我没有离开的理由
是我没用 无法守护著你一直到最后
别回头 答应我 你会好好过
让我默念一万遍
I'll always always love you
love you so

when it does matter.

i stared, i blinked and i rubbed my eyes.
just to make sure i wasn't seeing the wrong things, like the blur me always do.
still the word spelt with a B, an A and a D was there.
true, no? haaa. i think i have the answer in my heart already.

one thing was right though. i expected too much. righhhhht. too much.
i should be contented, respect whatever decision i've already made,
and let everything remain as it is.


给我藉口 让我这次能够彻底的放手

~


suddenly, i fear A levels so much.
even with the "天时 地利 人合." LOL

A levels seem so near.
holidays doesn't seem enough.
o.O



"No one can stop you unless you stop yourself, No one will push you unless you push yourself. The choice is yours."
JJ's words always appear at the right time to make me feel better. (:

歷史不斷重演 我好累...

i looked through them, again and again.
at least for the 100th time already.

and im afraid of disappointments.
but i cant help placing high hopes that you'll never fail me, yet again.



妥協 - 蔡依林


你　總愛編織謊言
我　負責配合表演
所有改變　只為了進入你的世界
這情節　重複了一百遍
才發現　是你的心太野

你　劃定楚河漢界
我　不能輕易犯規
所有時間　都是先給了你優先權
不自覺　愛到不敢冒險
成了你的傀儡一年兩年
才看見我有多狼狽

愛到妥協　到頭來還是無解
綁著你不讓你飛
歷史不斷重演　我好累
愛到妥協　也無法將故事再重寫
你已下最後通牒
我躲在我的世界

你只是害怕一個人睡
我不想再為你掉淚
我了解不會變不在徘徊
開始自己的明天




on a random note, thinking of how to write my SGC is killing my braincells! D:

not in the mood to do any work, but...
i've this huge pile of work waiting for me to complete besides writing the SGC!
prepare next week's gp presentation outline,
read through that thick stack of geography readings,
complete nitrogren compounds tutorial,
and whatever is thereeeee.

yea right, GP Midyear papers' like NEXT FRIDAY?!


perhaps i need some externalities to spur me on (:

너를 보고 싶어요

these few days, JJ has been updating his blog daily.
i see the side of him smiling, having fun and all.
but i didn't know his 声带 was giving him problems, yet again.

he's still working so hard to bring out the best in every performance, despite the doctor's advice that he should really rest.

i was just thinking, what if he ever strain his voice too much?
so much so that i won't ever get to hear him sing live again ):

please please, take a break and stop working, just for awhile.
i know any other JMs will want you to do so too.

so please take good care of yourself! [:

and im truly proud that he won these 3 awards! (:

~

CHEM SPA IS FINALLY OVER!
yea, last one on Skill A today and like just write for 1whole hour.
hehhh byebye to that thick stack of Skill A i've wrote over the last few weeks! :D

ytd's volleyball match was woa!
exciting. hahaa, didn't regret going to watch!
and i think our sch team played pretty well :D

but something more WOA happened, and i totally witnessed the whole thing.
hahaa, texted dear about it. LOL (just happened to be smsing her so is 顺便 tell her one!)




because the brain isn't like a computer's memory.
the more you press the delete button, the more it stays with you, and the harder it is to forget it.

kim hyun joong! :D

new korean eyecandy!

i'll limit myself to watch boys over flowers on tv only, which is like 1 episode per week...
until the holidays are here! :D

i am sorry eileen dear, i fell for him too!
you can have him, if you don't mind i like him too! HAHA! (:



leehom's birthday!
and i-know, mq-know, brenn-know (and probably eileen-also-can-guess) who else's birthday! (:

tell me why I cant be there where you are...

chengxi's blogpost was totally, spot on!

things just don't happen the way you want them to, most of the time.
the more you want of something, the more it is unattainable.
and vice versa, it's so difficult to break free from what you don't want.

ideal person doesnt always equal to THAT person.
who you like doesn't necessarily be how you thought they are supposed to be.

and he's right too, about the sms reply time. haha!

~

i forgot what i wanted to blog about.
ahahas, nvm.

holidays are coming! (:
lots of catch up to do, schoolwork as well as friends!
but its only 4weeks ah, and there'll probably be extra lessons!
even on the first day of jun. you get what i mean. lol


and im awaiting the special day, 16jun! :D

i love 小猪! ^^

pffft i really feel like beating up those reporters for all that they've reported.
小猪! 你一定不会因为那些无聊的记者和报道而走下坡!
我们都还是爱你的! :D

when i saw him cry, i really wanted to run up to him, to hug and console him like what 大S did.

and im glad he has got 小鬼!
a friend who will always be there for him. (:
BRENDA! 谢谢你的小鬼!

这是我希望看到的主任　永远开开心心的 :D

"true friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and hard to forget." (:

*pls let me forget about the math test today because i just totally gave up on it D:

SIG day!
hahah didn't do much, hee made me miss guitar!
seeing the J1s going around playing their songs looks fun!
but i kept hearing 关怀方式 and 对面的女孩看过来 only. lol :D

and here goes the lame conversation that sets me laughing....

yeqi: auntie 为什么没有帮你切蛋?
huihui: 这是一个很好的问题. 因为 auntie 知道我可以自己切!

the bubblegum also.. LOL!!
now even i think of it i also feel like laughing le, hahaha!



almost everyone couldn't recognise me today ):
hahaaa! i don't like the shocked faces ppl gave me but it's still quite fun to shock ppl. LOL! :x

weather's so hot i cant stand the heat!
3days don't wash + 1week don't tie is impossible!
im washing tmr and im tying it up on thurs!
i hope nothing will happen to my hair though. LOL


i managed to catch the last half an hour of ylbfb today!
xiaozhu's english is improving! and im happy! (:


~

It's You - Super Junior



eunhyuk and yesung! xD
hee thanks liying for showing it to me, and the song! (:


someone smiles and before he could say hello... erm.. LOL!
(mh knows what happeneeeed! and she agrees with me tooo!)

TANK! (:

i just had to blog again coz of him. xD

back with his third album, 《第三回合》!!!!

首波主打 生還者!
got 不一样的风格, i like. haha (:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=72Md7LHlNWQ&feature=related

but what im here to recommend is not just that,

this song is nice, and at the same time it makes me feel so sad ):
it's easy to decipher what the lyrics meant.
even though i can't be sure he's talking about himself, i just inevitably feel the relation between the song and his illness (his heart problem).

but just the lyrics is enough to make one 感觉到那悲伤.

如果我变成回忆 - TANK



累了 照惯例努力清醒着

也照惯例想你了

好怕一放心睡了

心跳在梦中 不听话的 就停止了

听着 呼吸像浪潮摆动着

越美丽越让我忐忑

我还能珍惜什么

如果我连自己的脉搏 都难掌握

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命

留下你错愕哭泣

我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你

想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行

我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运

没机会白着头发

蹒跚牵着你 看晚霞落尽紧

漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈

若有人可以 让他陪你 我不怪你

快乐 什么时候会结束呢

哪一刻是最后一刻

想把你紧紧抱着

可知你是我生命中的 最舍不得

如果我变成回忆 退出了这场生命

留下你错愕哭泣

我冰冷身体 拥抱不了你

想到我让深爱的你人海孤独旅行

我会恨自己 如此狠心

如果我变成回忆 终于没那么幸运

没机会白着头发

蹒跚牵着你 槛门上搂紧

漫长时光总有一天你会伤心痊愈

若有人可以 让他陪你

如果我变成回忆 最怕我太不通气

顽固的赖在空气 霸占你心里 每一寸空隙

要让依然爱我的你痛苦承受失去

这样不公平 请你尽力 把我忘记

once in a blue moon, i crave for food too (:

i think after eating the 东海 (east ocean) restuarant's lobster,
i can't stop craving for it! haha!
not into the lobster, but the sauce rather.
the butter-like sauce that is abit like butter but not exactly butter... lol i don't know how to describe but you'll have to try it out yourself then you will know!
yeaa even if you're not a teochew (coz its a teochew restaurant. haa!)
really very nice!!!!!
:D

the way my whole family divided ourselves for dinner made me laugh.
1 table was filled with 病人, and another (where i sat at) was those who are feeling well. HAHA!
yea so about half of my relatives were sick, so their table was the '危险区'.
you see how the swine flu has got everyone paranoid. LOL


spent like a few hours at twister today!
other than 发呆ing, i tried recalling SPA okay! nvr waste my time whilst rebonding. lol.
the hair stylists i got today were pretty pretty niceee!
one of them was way cool can, taught me like all sorts of things i needed to know.
you see how easily contented i can get, even a hair stylist can make my day :DD


now the thing is, i can't tie my hair for the whole of this week at least!
aaah oh my, i feel so 不习惯 going to school like this D:


i want a mumu too! :D

'don't say im childish because im left with 3 more weeks to be so' :D

whee happy mothers' day! ^^

holidays/celebrations means eat and eat.
ahahas, and somemore.. when was the last time i had PE!
can't even recall. LOL! :x

so no matter what! i had to drag myself out of bed earlier this morning, went for a run :D
a workout in the morning feels good. (:

and i suddenly miss swimming, coz i saw the swimming pool today! haha!
i really wonder if i still know how to swim, like ages since i swim le!
cycling also ah. hahaa..

i can't beat eileen's score on fb's bejeweled! ):
LOL!


poof going out soon, and tmr's like almost the whole day gone and i haven't study complex/do tuts! D:

conclusion: weekends are never enough, no matter how long they are


我松开手 回忆却没放掉

绝对?

或许那只是一部偶像剧 Mars 也只是其中的一个角色...

他让我明白 世上没有绝对

没有绝对的失败 没有绝对的不可能 没有绝对的被否认

只有自己 决定放弃 决定不追求 决定接受命运

才有 所谓的 得不到


(:

~

:D

coz' this is life.

hey yo! it's FRIDAY and no school on monday!
so yea it just meant, going out after school! :D

pretty short day, supposedly.
but i stayed back for Econs, just to kill time coz' was gonna meet up for pizza hut!

it was "coz' this is life" day.
haha yea, class was wearing class tee, BRIGHT yellow!
lol, even the teachers wore! (:
but too bad we only managed to take photo with mdm shahida, without mr low, plus a few ppl missing.

take again next time! haha..

(i forgot this is from jamie/sirong. still.. i've koped them all, i think. haha! yea so credits to them!)


after sch! it was pizza hut time!
went all the way to tampines leh! just for brenda's convenience!
感动惨了 对吗? HAHA!
eyescream + a few other 8.1 (:
brenn, mq, dear, shumin, ly, adam, bk.

no group pic but there's a photo of 4 of our drinks.
shall get it soon from dear! :D

had a nice time catchin' up with them!
meet again soon! (:


~

something random during break today.

uh shijie's like North Korea. ahahas.
abit difficult to explain but anyws, JJ wouldn't have been the great leader coz i won't know him at all. lol.

instead, probably mrlow would have been a better one.
to tie up with being his 支持者

because, as you can see.
advertisements are...



PROPAGANDA!


LOL!

so i worship chemistry? hahahaha!

maybe can get me an autographed chem TYS by mr low on my birthday ah.
good idea. HAHAAA!



wheeee goodnights! (:

loved by what you hate, not?

it's wednesday! and i felt weird leaving home without guitar.
hahaa, it's those kind of habit that i still can't kick yet.

SIG day next tues and im looking forward to guitarrrr's! (:


rahhhs today, i reached school at 8am when lesson starts at 730am!!
must be the first time in my whole life im so late for sch. LOL

wheeee it's one of those times i feel a surge of happiness :DDD


有些人 就是有这么大的影响力
能让你 开心 或难过.

haaa. true yea. xD



but a part of me is feeling sad that Cx's contract with mediacorp ended ):



why do creepy crawlies love me so much D:


对的错的 做了选择 故事说到这
只是过去的甜蜜太过深刻 要多久 才能够褪色

你是空气但是好闻胜过了空气 你是阳光但是却能照进半夜里

JJ was so cute and i was merely screaming and high-ing for the whole hour. xD
he was so confident that he was right! LOL careless mistake lah.
the first time was right, but when he confirmed it, it was wrong ):
but he already did well, just that if he'd make it thru' all the songs, would have more of him on tv. hahaa...

'是你让我翻破爱情的秘笈' hahah i'll never forget this line i think :D

~

today's such a math day! 5 hours of math! D:
there was no math test on complex, fortunately.
wasn't prepared. lol.
still, i was kinda surprised i could do the time practice during remedial! (:
yea at least, i would say i could have passed if it was a test.
but, i really don't know why the sudden 开窍 on complex number though. haha!

and i can say im happy about my chem test. yea :D
2marks was really cannot do one, but another 2marks was careless mistake!
(aah like JJ lidat. lol) i forgo t to write reagents and conditions! ):
pooof, and there goes my 2 marks..

tmr's like chem, chem and chem the whole day.
writing SPA twice is gonna be such a torture to my hand!
anddd i haven't study org chem! D:

如果你爱过我 你不会就这样走 就这样丢下我 和那些天真承诺

NYguitar, loves. (:

thanks yanting for the photos! so efficient! haha :D

last day of guitar today, thanks juniors!
they gave us chocolates, and ordered pizzas.
it was sweet, when they said 'thank you seniors'. hahaas.
even though didn't had much interaction with them, the most during wednesdays practs when we had to teach them (uh, and i guess i didn't do a good job anws)
they still came up with this 'farewell' thing. haha (:

thinking back, i joined guitar alone without knowing anyone then.
it was kinda a struggle choosing between guzheng, ccs and guitar.
i don't know what kept me going, despite (honestly speaking) guitar pracs being boring and the learning process was... not tough, but not easy either.

but that was all in the beginning. maybe last year.
perhaps it was all the fun and jokes we tried integrating into our pracs,
perhaps it was going through the same ups and downs of good and bad performances,
perhaps it was being a SIG that we inevitably had to stay bonded to keep guitar ensemble going.

the 1 year or so wednesdays and saturdays definitely didn't go to waste.
i've learnt how to play the guitar (haha, although not very pro), made lots of good friends, and..
developed the phobia of eating 鱼片米粉.. haha! (nah, just joking. i still like it :D)

i'll miss...

playing 彩虹 and 关怀方式 with yeqi!
huihui's cold jokes that can makes me laugh nonstop!

getting 嘲笑 by wenguang and all his cockroach/bubbletea/elmo talks!
yanting's catch phrase: 欢乐时光总是过得特别快!
jovin opening the room for us to put guitar (LOL!) and threats to sack us!

indeed, it was a nice and worthwhile time spent.
certainly, i haven't regretted or doubt myself about whether i've chosen the right cca (:

jovin, yanting, jack, wenguang, yeqi, huihui, xueying, jiawen, teik siang.
not forgetting wangda and joel..

nyguitarists, thanks for all the memories! :D

蔡依林 - 我的依赖



地震的夜晚 赶来作伴
重感冒的凌晨 煮着稀饭
这个让我哭过的人多么温暖
我感谢我们不完美 却坦白自然

我们从牵手放手 又牵手 走过来
愿意为更懂你的心 Spending all my life
每当情绪像海 你只抱我 从不催我讲出来
我就明白 你是我的依赖

我们从期待失落 又期待 走过来
愿意为一起看未来 Spending all my life
每当变成习惯 生活太淡 总有感动的意外
我就明白 你是我的依赖

就算是幸福都由老天在管
只借不送 我还是不肯还 用真爱耍赖

我们从日出日落 又日出 走过来
愿意为爱你去忙碌 Spending all my life
每当命运变幻 需要狂欢 需要流泪 你都在
我就明白 你是我的依赖
我们明白 爱是互相依赖

jj has been updating his blog daily! (:

i should be studying! but i was out the whole day..
sakura buffet (again! im sick of it already. LOL, but it fills my stomach for one whole day, which is... good? haha)
then went Mt. faber, took a stroll at the bridge (henderson?)
it feels great to be close to nature, what's missing was insect repellent!
haha, still... :D

last guitar prac tmr!
but yeqi won't be thereeee! ):

will be officially free from guitar,
and it means.. time to focus on my studies!

im sad but...
the thought of early wednesdays dismissals and free saturdays... ahahaas! :DD

量着我们之间的距离 好想可以一步就跨越过去

梦不会实现了 我应该要醒了...

eunhyukkie! i had a good laugh at him and heechul. (:

i trust 罗主任, no matter what happens! (:
he's really lucky to have such a great friend like 小鬼, and of course his fans!


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害怕, 不是理由 也不是借口
它是我克服不了的恐惧...

perhaps what i really need now is someone who'll really listen,
and help me straighten up my thoughts.